Friday, January 17, 2025

More About Mental Journaling

  Awhile back I wrote about a thing I like to call mental journaling, as an alternative to normal journaling. This is basically where you just simply imagine words in your mind, rather than actually writing or typing them out.

Since writing that post, I have had some new “revelations,” if you will, about the subject, and figured it was time for a follow-up post. With that, here you go:


10-15 minutes per day (alongside real journaling)

Over the last few months, I have come to realize that physical journaling and mental journaling each have their own unique set of pros and cons. For instance, physical journaling is great for keeping track of things numerically (in my case, the number of days since I started my diet), while setting aside specific time daily to practice mental journaling can help to reinforce that “muscle” in your brain, so to speak. That way, if you’re ever in a stressful situation and want to journal but can’t do so for real (out with friends, etc.), you’re better prepared to mentally journal instead, thanks to daily practice. Therefore, I feel it’s best to do BOTH forms of journaling daily. I usually get my physical journaling out of the way in the morning (I detailed that process here), and then set aside 10 or 15 minutes in the evening for mental journaling, and during this time, I make sure to avoid all other distractions (TV, music, phone, etc.) as much as possible.


“Rapid” mental journaling in loud situations

Unfortunately, some scenarios are gonna be so loud and stressful to the point where normal mental journaling will be difficult. For these cases, I’ve gotten into the habit of just doing very simple, “rapid” journaling in my head, where I just focus on one or a few words at a time and tell myself things like “fuuuuuck” or “god dammit” or whatever.


Same goes for anger/flashbacks (curses)

I find that the “rapid” mental journaling described right above can also be beneficial for bad flashbacks/ intrusive thoughts. I used to have a habit of screaming “fuck” really loud, or something to that effect, when a bad memory appears in my head out of nowhere, but thankfully this habit has been declining ever since I started mental journaling more, and specifically rapid mental journaling.


Vague formats

I said in my first mental journaling post that I sometimes like to imagine the words being typed out in a word processor in my head, while other times I like to imagine them being handwritten in cursive (since that’s what I do for physical journaling anyways). Lately, however, I’ve started to imagine the words in a “vague, wavy” sorta format. It’s hard to explain, really, but I felt the need to address this so that you’d know that it’s okay to use the limitless potential of your mind to imagine forms of wording that can’t really exist in reality. In fact, I’d almost recommend it above the more “realistic” forms of imagining the words, at this point.


Song lyrics

When all else fails, I like to also just simply sing songs in my head, and imagine the lyrics being typed out in my mind as I do.


…Well, once again, hopefully some of this helped at least someone.


Peace!


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Tuesday, December 17, 2024

Guilty Conscience: A Sci-Fi Short Story

 GUILTY CONSCIENCE

Henry N. Silva


The scientist and his assistant wait patiently in the alley…

“You sure this is where he said to meet?” The assistant asks.

His mentor nods in assurance, “Positive.”

Not too long after, an older man emerges. A man whom the assistant only knows as the terrorist.

“Did you do what I asked?” The older man snarls.

“Yessir,” the scientist hands the terrorist the suitcase he had been carrying. “Used the leftover uranium you gave us to make exactly what you wanted.”

The terrorist takes hold of the suitcase, “If this bomb turns out to be fake, you and your family are done for, yah hear?”

“No need to worry.”

“So what’re yah making with all that extra uranium anyways?”

“A time machine.”

“Ha, that’s rich!” The terrorist bellows, before turning around and leaving…

The assistant then turns towards his mentor, “Did you really just give him a real bomb?”

“Sure did.”

“How do you not have a guilty conscience about that?!”

“Like I said… No need to worry.”


***


The terrorist makes his way towards the amusement park, suitcase in hand…

Suddenly, a flurry of police officers surround him, “Freeze!”

Among them is the scientist himself…

“You?!” The terrorist shakes his head in disbelief, “How?!”

“I waited until you would try to detonate the bomb, to see where you’d be and when,” the scientist explains. “Then I went back in time to stop you.”


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Sunday, December 15, 2024

The Choice: A Narrative Poem

 THE CHOICE

A Narrative Poem

Henry N. Silva


Midland; where day meets night and where night meets day

Where magic and science become one

Gio takes it all in, knowing this day will be his last there

He takes in the perfect sky and weather

Not too bright or dark, not too hot or cold

He looks upon all the wonderful machines

Aided ever-so-slightly by magic

The limited land which everyone wants

Which is exactly why he must now go…

His superior stands before him

“Sorry,” the brooding man says, plainly

“We can no longer afford to employ you”

“But I have no family,” Gio sighs

“How can I stay?” He asks, despite knowing the answer

“You can’t,” the older man responds bluntly,

Raising his arms in opposite directions, “Now you must choose.”

Gio looks through the clear, virtual shields protecting Midland

Far into the east, he sees Nightland

Where bright spots of magic pierce through the darkness

Far into the west, he sees Dayland

Where cities stand tall, beneath the eternal sun

The magic and mythic creatures of the night entice him

As does the advanced technology of the day,

More advanced than anything else he has known in his two decades alive

He looks back at his former employer, “Is magic hard to master?”

The older man raises an eyebrow, “Have you ever tried it?”

Gio sighs again, “Yes… It was fun… But hard…

I think I’ve made my choice.”

He points to the west, and then instantly wonders;

Did I choose right?

TEN YEARS LATER

Gio awakens in his small, rundown home…

Through his window shades, he sees the eternal light of Dayland

Grunting, he stumbles out of bed,

Doing his best to ignore the industrial sounds outdoors…

He looks up at a bought painting on his wall,

Depicting a wizard of light and a wizard of darkness

He gazes at the hero, lamenting what he did not strive for

His eyes then move over to the villain of the piece,

As he wonders if he would have become that instead…

“Things could always be worse, I suppose…”

He had always thought about trying to paint as well,

But always told himself “Some other time!”

As usual, he steps out into the streets,

Heading towards his mundane work of fixing machines

On his way, he finds a homeless man, drawing in a notebook

“Did someone buy that for you?” Gio can’t help but ask

“No,” the hoodlum responds. “Bought it with the money I had left”

Gio raises an eyebrow, “May I ask why?”

“Helps me live with the choices that ruined my life…

That’s all life is ever about, right?

Finding a way to live with the choices you make!”


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Sunday, December 8, 2024

Random Favorites

  The title is self-explanatory, so let’s just jump right in:


MUSIC ARTIST: Red Hot Chili Peppers


SOLO MUSIC ARTIST: Michael Jackson


ALBUM COVER: Pink Floyd - Wish You Were Here


EP: Alice in Chains - Sap*

*I consider Jar of Flies to be an album


LIVE ALBUM: Nirvana - MTV Unplugged in New York


ELECTRIC LIVE ALBUM: Kiss - Alive!


ACOUSTIC ALBUM: Nirvana - MTV Unplugged in New York


ACOUSTIC STUDIO ALBUM: Alice in Chains - Jar of Flies


PSYCHEDELIC/BLUES ARTIST: Jimi Hendrix


PSYCHEDELIC/BLUES ALBUM: Jimi Hendrix - Are You Experienced? (US Version)


PSYCHEDELIC/BLUES SONG: Jimi Hendrix - “Little Wing”


PROG ARTIST: Pink Floyd


PROG ALBUM: Pink Floyd - The Wall


PROG SONG: Pink Floyd - “Wish You Were Here”


RAP/HIP-HOP ARTIST: Outkast


RAP/HIP-HOP ALBUM: Outkast - Aquemini


RAP/HIP-HOP SONG: Outkast - “Rosa Parks”


RAPPER: Andre 3000


GARAGE ARTIST: The White Stripes


GARAGE ALBUM: The White Stripes - Elephant


GARAGE SONG: The White Stripes - “Fell in Love with a Girl”


SHOEGAZE ARTIST: My Bloody Valentine


SHOEGAZE ALBUM: My Bloody Valentine - Loveless


SHOEGAZE SONG: My Bloody Valentine - “Loomer”


THRASH ARTIST: Metallica


THRASH ALBUM: Metallica - Ride the Lightning


THRASH SONG: Metallica - “Ride the Lightning”


POP/R&B/SOUL ARTIST: Michael Jackson


POP/R&B/SOUL ALBUM: Michael Jackson - Thriller


POP/R&B/SOUL SONG: Michael Jackson - “Thriller”


NU-METAL ARTIST: Linkin Park


NU-METAL ALBUM: Linkin Park - Meteora


NU-METAL SONG: Slipknot - “The Heretic Anthem”


BRITPOP ARTIST: Oasis


BRITPOP ALBUM: Oasis - (What’s the Story) Morning Glory?


BRITPOP SONG: Oasis - “Champagne Supernova”


NY ARTIST: Kiss


NY ALBUM: Kiss - Hotter than Hell


NY SONG: Kiss - “I Stole Your Love”


BOSTON ARTIST: Aerosmith


BOSTON ALBUM: Aerosmith - Rocks


BOSTON SONG: Aerosmith - “Rats in the Cellar”


CHICAGO ARTIST: The Smashing Pumpkins


CHICAGO ALBUM: The Smashing Pumpkins - Siamese Dream


CHICAGO SONG: The Smashing Pumpkins - “Mayonaise”


STONER ARTIST: Tool


STONER ALBUM: Tool - Undertow


STONER SONG: Tool - “The Pot”


DESERT ARTIST: Queens of the Stone Age


DESERT ALBUM: Queens of the Stone Age - Songs for the Deaf


DESERT SONG: Queens of the Stone Age - “You Think I Ain’t Worth a Dollar (But I Feel Like a Millionaire)”


NEW WAVE/SYNTHPOP ARTIST: Depeche Mode


NEW WAVE/SYNTHPOP ALBUM: Depeche Mode - Violator


NEW WAVE/SYNTHPOP SONG: Dead or Alive - “You Spin Me around (Like a Record)”


BRITISH INVASION/POP ROCK ARTIST: The Beatles


BRITISH INVASION/POP ROCK ALBUM: The Beatles - Magical Mystery Tour (US Version)


BRITISH INVASION/POP ROCK SONG: The Rolling Stones - “Gimme Shelter”


GROOVE METAL ARTIST: Pantera


GROOVE METAL ALBUM: Pantera - Vulgar Display of Power


GROOVE METAL SONG: Pantera - “Cemetery Gates”


NOISE ROCK/SHOCK ROCK ARTIST: White Zombie


NOISE ROCK/SHOCK ROCK ALBUM: White Zombie - Astro-Creep: 2000


NOISE ROCK/ SHOCK ROCK SONG: White Zombie - “More Human than Human”


INDUSTRIAL ARTIST: Nine Inch Nails


INDUSTRIAL ALBUM: Nine Inch Nails - The Downward Spiral


INDUSTRIAL SONG: Nine Inch Nails - “Head Like a Hole”


BLACK METAL ARTIST: Mayhem


BLACK METAL ALBUM: Mayhem - Live in Leipzig


BLACK METAL SONG: Mayhem - “Carnage”


UK ARTIST: Led Zeppelin


UK ALBUM: Oasis - (What’s the Story) Morning Glory?


UK SONG: The Rolling Stones - “Gimme Shelter”


CANADA ARTIST: Rush


CANADA ALBUM: Rush - Moving Pictures


CANADA SONG: Rush - “Limelight”


COEN BROTHERS FILM: No Country for Old Men


MARTIN SCORSESE FILM: Goodfellas


STEVEN SPIELBERG FILM: Raiders of the Lost Ark


ROMCOM FILM: Man Up


LEONARDO DICAPRIO FILM: Inception


MATT DAMON FILM: The Bourne Identity


LIVE-ACTION SHOW: Beat Bobby Flay


LIVE-ACTION DRAMA SHOW: Breaking Bad


LIVE-ACTION SITCOM SHOW: Two and a Half Men (Seasons 1-8)


LIVE-ACTION SCI-FI SHOW: Firefly


LIVE-ACTION FANTASY SHOW: Game of Thrones


FOOD: Pizza


DRINK: Tea


ANIMATED FILM: Toy Story 2


2D ANIMATED FILM: The Iron Giant


VIDEOGAME: Tetris


NARRATIVE VIDEOGAME: The Legend of Zelda (any of them)


COMBAT VIDEOGAME: Super Smash Bros. Melee


CARD GAME: Solitaire


FILM DIRECTOR: James Cameron


WRITER: Philip K. Dick


POET: Charles Bukowski


POEM: “So You Want to Be a Writer?” by Charles Bukowski


ACTOR: Marlon Brando


ACTING PERFORMANCE: Marlon Brando in The Godfather


STORE: Barnes & Noble


GROCERY STORE: Trader Joe’s


COLOR: Brown


STAND-UP COMEDIAN: Norm McDonald


Peace!


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