Saturday, November 15, 2025

Poetry Repository: Holiday 2025 Edition

  Had a flood of inspiration recently and wrote up thirty new poems in a short amount of time (mostly haikus, but a few free-verse poems as well). Figured it made sense to do a whole new repository, and title it after the holidays (like I did in 2023). Thanksgiving is in less than two weeks from now anyways…


So here we go:


INWARD & OUTWARD

Some of our poems

Are for looking inward

While other poems

Are for looking outward

And some are for both

In some way or another


ABSOLUTE (TRIPLE HAIKU)

It’s okay to be

Absolutely incorrect

At least once in life


Most times, you’re only

Just a little incorrect

Not absolutely


Remember how

You had thought they would be

Not how they were


AMBIGUITY (HAIKU)

Poems give ambiguity

A way to hide one’s feelings on something

As one releases those feelings


FALLING OUT (HAIKU)

Sometimes falling outs

Are simply just meant to be

No matter the cause


NO SUCH THING AS TRUE ORIGINALITY

People may thank me for inspiring them

But they should really thank the ones

Who inspired ME in the first place

And the people before them

And so on and so forth


ARTSPEAK (HAIKU)

People talk too much

But art can speak for itself

So make art instead


SOMETHING FROM NOTHING (HAIKU)

When you have nothing to say

Just say anything that comes to mind

Then you have something to say


NEW PHASE (HAIKU)

A new phase of life

Just to work towards a goal

A new beginning


INTERNAL (HAIKU)

Internal conversations

Sometimes the only conversations

That are really worth having


BURNING BRIDGES (HAIKU)

Is there a point in making art,

When you have no one left to share it with?

I’m sorry I can’t help but run…


FORMULA (HAIKU)

Internal monologues

And ongoing observations

Expressed through poetry


AMATEUR (HAIKU)

Identities are overrated

But “a poet” is a valid contender

…But I’d rather stay an amateur


NO TRUE SKILL (HAIKU)

When the skills that one has

Apply to nothing substantial

What options do they have?


LOOP

The price of living alone

Is being in a loop

Forever and ever

So make it a good loop


GOOD IDEAS STAY (HAIKU)

Don’t worry about writing

Every single damn idea down

Good ideas stay with you


OLD NEW ME YOU

The old me thought of me

The new me thinks of you

But I became who I’m meant to be

And in the end, you did too


ORGANIC APOLOGY (HAIKU)

If you were truly sorry

Even when others said not to be

You would’ve apologized


WASTE OF POTENTIAL (HAIKU)

People tend to base their identity

Out of only two or three particular things

A waste of potential, if you ask me


VICIOUS CYCLE (HAIKU)

Great art comes from sadness

But who wants to always be sad?

I certainly do not


RECYCLE (HAIKU)

Forgive me if you heard this all before

I can only be so original these days

An old idea is better than none


WANDER (HAIKU)

If only I could wander

Without any consequence at all

From one world to the next one


PARIAH

A drop of red blood

In an ocean of blue

A single incandescent

In a sea of LEDs

And then there’s me

Surrounded by all of you


ADVENTURE

Who really needs adventure?

An adventure can simply be

Listening to music online

Randomly clicking

From one song to the next


THE LUCK FACTOR (HAIKU)

We meet the right ones

At the wrong time of our lives

Some more than others


MY HAIKU STYLE (HAIKU)

The start is the set-up

The middle line is the whole point

And the end line resolves


AND THE BEAT GOES ON (HAIKU)

I don’t have to keep writing

And yet here I am, doing just that

Not sure why, so you tell me


IF IT DIDN’T (HAIKU)

If it didn’t work out

Remember what was wrong with them

Not what was right with them


HAPPY (HAIKU)

The key to happiness

Is to come to terms with the fact

That life is not happy


LEARN (HAIKU)

The human brain can learn

More than most other types of brains

So if all else fails, learn


BUILDING BLOCKS (HAIKU)

Our old art may be flawed

But it serves as the building blocks

For our new art to come


Peace!


Related: Poetry Repository

Saturday, July 12, 2025

The Three Steps to Finding Yourself Again

UPDATE: I’ve actually given up on all the stuff I listed out here, but I’ll leave this post up anyway, in case it inspires anyone else, I guess… 

I haven’t posted in a while cause I’ve been going through a phase of losing interest in most of the things that used to excite me (watching movies, writing stories and poems, etc.). Thankfully, after a few months of soul-searching, I’m finally starting to get into a new rhythm that I’m happy with, so I figured I might as well share here what I’ve learned along the way, cause it can really be boiled down to just three steps in particular…

So, without further ado, let’s get right to it:


1.Do Nothing

Yes, as counter-intuitive as it sounds, I’ve learned now that, sometimes, you just have to do absolutely nothing. Clear your mind as much as possible. When you’re burned out on everything, you need to take a break from the world, before you can figure out how to step back into it…


2.Find “Inputs” to Take In

Once you’ve spent enough time doing absolutely nothing, the next step is to find content to absorb that makes you feel inspired. This part might require a bit of thinking outside the box, though, as well as a bit of trial-and-error (don’t be afraid to go back to doing nothing now and then if you have to). Part of my burnout involved the fact that I was creating so much stuff, but not taking in anything to keep “fueling the fire.” But as I said before, the stuff that used to interest me no longer did. That said, I had two different friends, who don’t even know each other, tell me the same thing: “Sounds like you have a lot of great outputs with your writing and stuff, but no inputs.” Eventually, after enough brainstorming, I had an epiphany: I loved journaling, but was only jotting down my own internal thoughts, instead of journaling about things around me. I then thought about the fact that my dad also likes to journal, and that he often writes down quotes he finds that peak his interest, in some form or another. So I started doing the same, and also started writing down lyrics to songs I like, as well as googling poems that fit a certain topic, and writing down the ones that spoke to me the most. Heck, I even started watching cooking videos, and writing down the recipes as the video would play (great way to constantly improve oneself as a person, by the way). Just simply passing the time with these “copying” activities felt rewarding to me…


3.Find a New Purpose, but Take Your Time with It

While taking in inputs was nice (and is probably enough for some people), something still felt missing for me. This part is a little more personal, but something I’ve always struggled with is assuming the worst possible things are always gonna happen in my life (my brain is always in “Murphy’s Law mode,” if that makes sense). Creating content used to always help keep that part of me at bay, but losing interest in all the stuff I used to do brought back a lot of that anxiety. I eventually realized that, in order to overcome all those anxious thoughts again, I would need to get back to creating consistent content, in some shape or form. I had always told myself that I would write an autobiography about my own life someday, and had tried again and again to do it, only to give up pretty early on, every single time. Recently, I decided to try again. Only this time, instead of writing my first draft by hand like I usually do, I decided to just go straight to typing, and doing so has been helping a lot, thankfully. I’ve also been writing huge chunks of it in “essay format,” rather than traditional prose. I imagine I’ll be working on this project slowly for years, if not decades. I’m betting I’ll wait until I’m an old man to release it. In fact, I may never release it at all. But that’s not the point. Rather, the point is that I finally feel like I have a new purpose. A new “foundation,” so to speak, that’s keeping my anxiety at bay again, because it allows me to accept things as they are and as they will be. I recommend everyone find a similar function in life, so that they can be at peace, regardless of whatever their life circumstances may be. And if you’re in a position where they can’t write about their life, for whatever reason, I’d recommend to simply try to hang in there until you can…


Welp, that’s pretty much it! As always, I hope at least something here speaks to someone…


Peace!


UPDATE: I’m starting to not worry as much about potential worst-case scenarios in my life, thankfully. I’ve realized recently that “realistic expectations” goes both ways, in that spending all your time hoping for good things that are almost impossible is basically the same as wasting all your time worrying about bad things that are almost impossible too. For instance, spending all my time hoping I win the lottery is just as wasteful as locking myself in my apartment 24/7 out of fear that I’ll get kidnapped. In other words, don’t worry one way or the other…


Related: List Repository

Saturday, March 29, 2025

My "About You Music"

  I saw this new trend going around on the Topster subreddit called “About You Music,” which asks people to pick different albums for different categories (favorite overall, best cover art, etc.). I don’t actually use Topster templates, so I figured I might as well just list out all my picks here instead, providing a quick explanation for each…

So here’s another pointless list of mine:


Favorite album

Guns N’ Roses - Appetite for Destruction (1987)

At this point I really just consider this album my favorite cause it was my “gateway drug” into being a metalhead when I was a kid. That said, even now, I still feel like every song on here sounds like it could’ve been a hit single. Also, just as a quick side note; part of me thinks the original cover art fits much better with the “story” that the whole album tells, though I understand why they needed to change it.


Best narrative

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Californication (1999)

I know when most people think of albums with strong narratives, they’d choose something like Pink Floyd’s The Wall (1979) or even The Smashing Pumpkins’ Mellon Collie & the Infinite Sadness (1995) over this. And while I love those other albums too, there’s something about the way the songs are ordered on this one that really “takes me on a journey” to California and back (which singer Anthony Keidis said was the intention anyway). This isn’t even my favorite Chili Peppers album (not anymore at least), but I definitely think it’s the closest they’ve ever come to making a “concept album,” in the traditional sense.


Favorite cover

Pink Floyd - Wish You Were Here (1975)

This cover art is just simply badass. There’s nothing more striking than watching a man shake hands with another man who’s on fire. He’s saying goodbye to a friend who’s dying (literally and/or figuratively), wishing that friend could stay.


I’ll listen someday

David Bowie - Blackstar (2016)

Everyone says this is the best “farewell” album of all time (Bowie apparently already knew he was dying when he made this). Not sure why I haven’t gotten around to it yet, but I will.


Personal impact

White Zombie - Astro-Creep: 2000 (1995)

I’ve said elsewhere on this blog that this album is basically what gets me up in the morning. It’s pure caffeine for my ears.


Bad day cure

Red Hot Chili Peppers - By the Way (2002)

When I think of a “bad day cure,” I think of something that’s beautiful, and I don’t think I’ve ever heard anything more beautiful than this album, though The Smashing Pumpkins’ Siamese Dream (1993) comes close. Nevertheless, even people who absolutely despise the Chili Peppers admit that this album is good.


You enjoy it but most don’t

Guns N’ Roses - Chinese Democracy (2008)

I get why most people don’t like this. It took too long to make, it’s overproduced, it’s not even really Guns N’ Roses, and most of the songs are either too sappy or too industrial. Nevertheless, in Slash’s absence, Axl found some pretty badass guitarists to replace him (most notably Buckethead), and being a “guitar head” myself, I can’t help but enjoy this album in a guilty-pleasure sorta way.


You don’t enjoy it but most do

Slash’s Snakepit - Ain’t Life Grand (2000)

In keeping with the theme of GN’R-related albums, I’ve noticed that most diehard fans say this is Slash’s best work outside of GN’R proper, and I just don’t get it. Only about half of the songs are good, in my opinion. This is the first album Slash made after leaving GN’R, and to me, it sounds like he had yet to figure out his new identity here.


Underrated

Metallica - Hardwired… to Self-Destruct (2016)

For me, this is the album that really put Metallica back on track. I understand that it’s not as “thrashy” as Death Magnetic (2008), but that’s kinda why I like it. This was the first time since …And Justice for All (1988) where they were neither chasing specific trends, nor trying too hard to be their younger selves again. They found a solid middle ground here, one that has thankfully continued with 72 Seasons (2023).


Overrated

Metallica - Death Magnetic (2008)

Look, I don’t think this is a bad album. In fact, I have it ranked as my second-favorite album of 2008 (behind Chinese Democracy, funny enough). Furthermore, this was definitely a step in the right direction after St. Anger (2003). That said, while I felt St. Anger and the few albums that preceded it were trying too hard to “chase trends,” this entire album felt like Metallica saying “look everyone, we sounds like the 80’s again! Please like us again!!” Nothing new here, really. For better or worse, it’s Metallica’s The Force Awakens.


Not usually my thing but…

Michael Jackson - Thriller (1982)

Probably my favorite non-rock album of all time. Don’t even know what to say about it that hasn’t already been said. It’s just simply awesome.


Best instrumental

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Stadium Arcadium (2006)

I assume by “instrumental,” Topster doesn’t mean a purely-instrumental album, but rather the instrumental layer of an album. If I’m wrong, then replace this with Buckethead’s Claymation Courtyard (2014). If I’m right, then I would like to state that John Fusciante’s work on here is probably the best guitar tracks I’ve ever heard in my life (I’ve said that elsewhere on this blog, but can’t say it enough). In fact, I’m listening to the isolated guitar tracks while I write this (as I do for most of my longer blog posts).


Best vocals

Soundgarden - Superunknown (1994)

Whenever I listen to Chris Cornell’s voice on here, I can’t help but think “how the fuck does he do that?!”


Simple but fun

The Beatles - A Hard Day’s Night (1964)

Of all the early Beatles albums, where they prioritized short, simple love songs, this is easily my favorite. Not sure why. Just something fun about it.


Best mixtape

n/a

While I like some hip-hop (Outkast, Eminem, NWA, Dr. Dre, Run the Jewels, etc.), I’m not familiar enough with mixtape culture to make a fair call here.


Consistent discography

Alice in Chains

Not only was original vocalist Layne Staley one of the best of all time, but the band somehow managed to continue making great music even after his death. The Devil Put Dinosaurs Here (2013) is the only AiC album I feel mixed about. Everything else they’ve done has basically been gold, as far as I’m concerned.


Biggest letdown

Velvet Revolver - Libertad (2007)

For those who don’t know, Velvet Revolver was basically just Guns N’ Roses with a different singer (in other words, what the other oldschool members of GN’R were doing while Axl was taking forever to make Chinese Democracy with other people). I loved the first Velvet album, Contraband (2004), so I was pretty stoked for this one, as I was still a kid at the time, at the peak of my GN’R fandom. Sadly, right away I could tell something was wrong with this LP. I only ended up liking about half of the songs, and my opinion hasn’t changed much since.


Biggest surprise

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Unlimited Love (2022)

When it was announced that Frusciante was rejoining this band (again) in 2019, I was pretty pumped. The thought of him making a new album with them is basically what got me through covid. Then the first three singles leading up to the album’s release came along, and while all those songs have grown on me now, I felt pretty lukewarm about them at the time. So when it came time to listen to the rest of the record, I was pretty nervous, to say the least. Thankfully, I ended up loving all of the other fourteen songs upon first listen. My overall experience with this album ended up being a nice combination of surprise and relief, which is something I don’t think I’ve really felt before, or since.


Best soundtrack

Lin-Manuel Miranda - Hamilton (2015)

I assume vocal albums count here. If not, then replace this one with John Williams’ soundtrack for Star Wars: The Empire Strikes Back (1980).


Most unique

Mr. Bungle - Mr. Bungle (1991)

I don’t even know where to start with this one. You’ll just have to listen to it for yourself.


Favorite band

Red Hot Chili Peppers

I understand why these guys aren’t for everyone, but I think the reason I like them so much is that they have a huge catalog that feels consistent, yet varied. If I wanna listen to something chill, I got By the Way, or the Josh-era albums. If I wanna listen to something epic (especially in terms of guitar), I got Blood Sugar Sex Magik or Stadium Arcadium. If I wanna listen to something that sounds kinda like a concept album, I got Californication. If I wanna listen to something a bit  heavier, I got Mother’s Milk or One Hot Minute. If I wanna listen to something “punky,” I got The Uplift Mofo Party Plan. If I wanna listen to pure funk, I got Freaky Styley. And that’s not even factoring in the b-sides, non-album singles, etc.


Favorite solo artist

Michael Jackson

Not really sure how to explain this one. I just find his music, voice, etc. to be on another level. I guess I also like that he always challenged himself to be different every time he made a new album. Shit, I even like 2001’s Invincible!


Best EP

Alice in Chains - Sap (1992)

I consider Jar of Flies (1994) to be a full-length album (it has seven songs and is over half an hour long after all), hence why I’m picking Sap here instead. Either way, they both showcase just how great and diverse Alice in Chains can really be.


Most depressing

John Frusciante - Smile from the Streets You Hold (1997)

This was the album Frusciante made when he was at his absolute lowest with drugs, poverty, etc. Right from the opening screams, you can tell that he’s crying out for help, and you can feel his pain across nearly all 17 songs on here (or 18, since the title track was split into two songs on later pressings, for some reason). I like it, though.


Well, that was a nice way to waste a Saturday.


Peace!


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